Situation Change

 I just got back from a horror con in Chicago.

I have attended this particular con (Days of the Dead) ten times now.

And while I love cons, fandom and meeting my heroes... I am no longer content with just going to these cons as a star-struck fan.

I want to have my own table at these cons.

And not as one of those self-published indie horror authors, looking to sell a book or two and gain a new fan/reader for life (which, incidentally, there is nothing wrong with that... I bought five books from three different indie authors this weekend alone), but as a screenwriter whose films have garnered a massive following.

I want to be one of the headliner guests.

I want to have Dan O'Bannon (another St. Louis horror screenwriter)-sized billing and recognition.

I just wrote a scene in Mall Santa.

It's a scene that has lived in my head for months. 

I need to find the energy and time to write and to keep this momentum going.

I want to be a part of that storytelling machine out West that I love so much.

I need to stop admiring it and break down the doors so I can be a part of it.